Friday, June 26, 2009

Toxic Toys? Oh yes!

I have always thought that there was a piece of the puzzle that I have been missing in regards to Nick's regressive health condition, a.k.a. his autism or ADHD. Five years ago, there were no signs or symptoms. The photo below is from a NICU reunion at the hospital where Nicolas was born. It was a fun, fun day with lots of activities, snacks and a time to see nurses and old friends. Maybe this was more than 5 years ago... Andrew was but a teenager. Doesn't really matter; Nicolas was a normal, happy little boy. There were no "episodes" or humiliating or embarrassing moments. No meltdowns, screaming or drooling either. Just a nice afternoon. What the heck happened?

When I look back and search for reasons and conditions, there are many to be found. Surgeries, medications, metal fillings, the MMR, etc.

And, when I look at his immunological system, his individual areas of concern and try to understand what is happening on a cellular level, it gets deep. It's been an education all over again, plus more than what I ever knew before, from taking high school chemistry and biology, that's for sure. In college, I took accounting classes and in cosmetology school, we did learn some about overall health relating to massage, etc. - but those were the 80's and much has been discovered since then. Still, both Nick's DAN! Dr. and I think we're missing something. He thinks it is allergy related. I am unsure. He thinks it is corn. It is not corn. I have done so many corn tests... it's silly.

I have just kind of put this on the back burner and been focusing on removing metals from Nick's body for now. Most days it is a fight just to get all his ala carte supplements in him... Until today. Today I am supposed to be packing to go up north to our cabin, cleaning, cooking, preparing, etc. So far, I have played with the bird... and read an article that I can't stop thinking about.

I peeked over at Age of Autism, one of my favorite places to be reminded that I am not alone. Our story is not unique and there are so many families who have lost children at younger ages than Nick. But, not to think about now. Now I am wondering about toxic toys.

Ever hear of toys being toxic? Did you know that toys can be toxic? Yes, that is what I said.

Go over to Age of Autism and read about the toys and lead levels. Then read the comments. If you have kids, you should read it. It your kids play with toys, you should read it.

Once again, I feel let down by the manufacturers and those with money and power. My heart aches and I am too tired to be angry.

Could this be the piece of Nick's puzzle that I am missing?

I have been focusing on so many areas... and for good reason. I am so aware of neurodiversity and what a joke it is if you're not just like everyone else. That's a bunch of garbage.

I have never been a follower and even in the salon industry - I have never gotten a trendy cut or new style when everyone else does. I can't stand the thought of being a carbon copy. In fact, Olivia and I are growing our hair as long as we can stand it, and then we will donate it. I haven't had so much as a trim in over 16 months. My hair is driving me nuts; but, I know there are people who would give anything just to be healthy enough to grow and have hair, so I am not complaining. Livi's hair is nearly down to her waist and mine is just the middle of my back. I trim hers every other month, to keep the ends clean looking. Speaking of hair, I have worked with hair and nail chemicals for almost 25 years. I wonder about all those chemicals and odors.

And, I wonder about the toys my kids play with. Do they contain high levels of lead? I am going to look at this possibility next week, after we get home from selling our cabin. You can bet I'll be blogging about it too.

Oh, the cabin is a rustic structure, by the way. No indoor plumbing. I haven't been up there in 8 years. One final trip is in order and I will bring home a few dishes and so forth... it's a 5 hour drive, one way. Wish me luck and pray for us. Safety and the sale. We NEED to sell. I am trusting that this is God's perfect timing, of course. I also trust that the things I discover along the way are meant to have a cause and reaction. Lead in toys? I don't know... but - I will find out.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Birthday Mancala

Today was Nick's 8th birthday. Yeah - we had a fun little family party this afternoon.

He was so small in these pictures and I was so ill. He was about a month old and I finally got to hold him. The hold is called a "kangaroo hold". You basically place your baby on your open chest and cover them up, allowing them to stay warm from your body heat. Nurses are nearby and the babies are hooked up to many, many machines. It is extremely important for little preemies to have the chance to hear their mother's heartbeat and smell her. I admit, it was so scary to hold him and he could not maintain his heartbeat, breathing or regulate his temperature yet... but - after a minute or two, he stabilized and did so well when I held him. I think it helps those little babies to live and thrive - when their mommies hold them, while they fight and struggle just to stay alive. It was also hard to leave my little fella each night and come home. I'd call up to the NICU, just before going to sleep. As soon as I woke up, I'd call again, and see how he did through the night and get all the details and his stats. Oh, that was a hard time... and somehow, we made it through. Andrew was only 13 and he and I lived at the hospital that summer. Hubs went in early in the morning and stopped each night, after work. We prayed and prayed for our little baby to live and that he would be healthy and strong.

His birthday is a celebration and for me, it's memories. We celebrate his life. He was only just over 3 lbs when he was born. It was a long and emotional summer back in 2001. Having a baby in the NICU all summer was hell. But, we made it through and God has given me a most challenging child! He had a great birthday. He got 5 new pets!! ((I must be crazy... ok - 2 of the pets were fish... but - not the other 3!))

The next group of photos were later in the summer. He was so much stronger! We could hold him when we desired and he was able to finally eat a special high calorie formula from a tiny little bottle. He sure was tiny; and at the time, he seemed huge in comparison to how small he was at birth. Ah yes... the perspective changed. (And Hubs still had hair 8 years ago!!)

Half of Nicolas' life has been challenging. He was a pretty easy toddler, until about the age of 4 1/2. Which, incidentally - is the age that Olivia is now.

Anyway, one of the things I got for Nick was the game Mancala. I had no idea how to play when I got the game for him, except that a friend tried to show me how to play last year... and I didn't get it. All I could remember was that you moved a lot of little marbles or pieces around on a wooden board and counted. I found the game at a rummage sale, and it was in excellent condition, so I got it. Tonight, I got the directions online and then Nick and I played a few rounds against a computer online. We figured it out and played the live version with each other tonight. He liked it. I think that he would have played all night, if I would have let him.

If you've never played Mancala, here's a link to a website called Cool Math Games. Try your luck against the computer a few rounds and you'll want to keep playing! It's pretty fun, really. And, it involves counting, skill and strategy -- best of all.

This was the first birthday party without candy. Andrew, his girlfriend and I made fruit kabobs for a healthy party alternative. They looked great and tasted delicious.

It's late and this week looks to be very busy! I am too busy. When there's not enough time to blog for my sanity and therapy, then I know that I am way too busy.

I also had a couple of lightbulbs go on in my brain last week. Revelation can be a good thing... more about my birthday boy later.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Genetically Modified Foods & Autism?

So much to read, consider and learn about. Another worth-while read is over at Nourishing Hope.

Genetically Modified Foods Require Immediate Moratorium According to The American Academy Of Environmental Medicine

"May 19, 2009 the American Academy of Environmental Medicine (AAEM) released a position paper on genetically modified food. In their most recent press release, the AAEM reiterates "there is more than a casual association between GM foods and adverse health effects" and that "GM foods pose a serious health risk in the areas of toxicology, allergy and immune function, reproductive health, and metabolic, physiologic and genetic health."

This is an important topic for all humans and particularly those most vulnerable to allergy, immune, and digestive assaults, such as children with autism.

The most common genetically modified foods to avoid and/or only eat organically are: corn, soy, canola and cottonseed. This means avoiding anything made from these "foods" including their oils."

Click here for the rest of the article.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Neuro - Something

I was recently with a group of acquaintances and we were chatting about bugs. Some of us can't stand spiders, while others don't like mice and rodents. Some can't tolerate snakes and then, there are those who can't fathom having goldfish! These women were all characteristically "good moms", happily married, church-going, coupon clipping moms. Nothing obvious or apparently different stood out. Yet, it was as if each of them had some unrevealed childhood trauma (or something) that gave them such strong opinions about their little fears.
It was very interesting to listen to each person's phobias of bugs and animals that are so small, in comparison to us as humans. When Nicolas would shriek or freak out about an insect or bug, I used to ask him, "How big is that bug and how big are you?". It would give him a different perspective and then he would correct me about calling an insect or arachnid a bug.

Well, observing all these seemingly neurotypical women gladly and eagerly share about what creeps them out got me thinking... of course.

Why is it that we can accept each others' phobias and fears, within "acceptable reasonable norms" and not our kids'?
Is it because our kids are just that -- still children and developing? So, then I got thinking more about this and especially for women. Most of us went to college, got married and had kids. We had to learn to budget, buy groceries, plan and cook large meals, prepare for the holidays, entertain, balance checkbooks, invest in retirement accounts, pay off student loans, set aside money for baby and bridal showers, weddings, graduations, the laundromat, car repairs, etc. We learned by experience and some of us are still learning, if we're lucky. Some of us love to wrap gifts and others, we shove presents in gift bags with tissue. As adults, we seem to view our gifts, talents and personality traits as part of who we are - and perfectly acceptable. Or, we're considered creative or artistic is we change the decor of our homes frequently. And, if we're messy, we're labeled as "organizationally challenged"or if we're a neat freak - then we're a little OCD... and it's all acceptable in most of our society. Then we look at our kids and we judge, compare, label, criticize and some of us, sadly - even wish they weren't the way the are. What a bunch of garbage... I am guilty of judgment.

Aren't we all a little obsessive or quirky? Do I wish Nicolas didn't cry so much and scream? Yes - absolutely. But, I do have a different perspective of what's going on in his body and how it is affecting his brain, thus, affecting his behavior.

I don't even know if Hubs fully understands... and I often feel as if I am fighting (whatever it is that I am fighting) --- the battle alone. Or at least that's how it seems, at times. I am turning into the very person I used to be afraid of: some radical-hippy-organic-vegetable-eating-health-counscious-freak. And I like the word Neurodiversity. ((SMILE)) Crazy... Neurodiversity.

Is Nicolas autistic? Is it ADHD? What will he be like if and when we get his allergies under control?
Will we ever get him back to how he used to be? Will I ever know the answers to these questions? I dunno.

This week I am going to focus on acceptance and neurodiversity.

(noo.roh.di.VUR.suh.tee, -dy.VUR.suh.tee) n. The variety of non-debilitating neurological behaviors and abilities exhibited by the human race.

More later...

Friday, June 12, 2009

Go to Adventures in Autism...Again

I am working a lot to try to compensate for the fact that it has been 11 months since Hubs has been employed in his field. Not much time to blog... lately.

But - I have time to check out some of my favorite blogs and Adventure's in Autism is a good read. You get facts over there. Go check it out. After all, if you live in America, don't you want to know just how wealthy the people who poisoned Nicolas are? Might as well come out and say it.

I have had a headache for 6 days now. Sorry. I am little grumpy I guess.

I am gonna put some oils on and put away laundry. That's what I do for fun on a Friday afternoon in the summertime. :) And I like it!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Readying Americans for Dangerous, Mandatory Vaccinations

Just when I semi-get-over my last discovery, I am on my way to another sad discovery. Dang...

Was I happier when I didn't know all the junk that's contributed to Nick's condition? The honest answer is "no". My child changed and I just kept thinking that he would somehow, magically turn back into who he was... ignorance was not bliss.

Anyway, I ran across this disturbing article.

Readying Americans for Dangerous, Mandatory Vaccinations

Global Research, June 10, 2009

At least three US federal laws should concern all Americans and suggest what may be coming - mandatory vaccinations for hyped, non-existant threats, like H1N1 (Swine Flu). Vaccines and drugs like Tamiflu endanger human health but are hugely profitable to drug company manufacturers.

The Project BioShield Act of 2004 (S. 15) became law on July 21, 2004 "to provide protections and countermeasures against chemical, radiological, or nuclear agents that may be used in a terrorist attack against the United States by giving the National Institutes of Health contracting flexibility, infrastructure improvements, and expediting the scientific peer review process, and streamlining the Food and Drug Administration approval process of countermeasures."

In other words, the FDA may now recklessly approve inadequately tested, potentially dangerous vaccines and other drugs if ever the Secretaries of Health and Human Services (HHS) or Defense (DOD) declare a national emergency, whether or not one exists and regardless of whether treatments available are safe and effective. Around $6 billion or more will be spent to develop, produce, and stockpile vaccines and other drugs to counteract claimed bioterror agents.

The Public Readiness and Emergency Preparedness (PREP) Act slipped under the radar when George Bush signed it into law as part of the 2006 Defense Appropriations Act (HR 2863). It lets the HHS Secretary declare any disease an epidemic or national emergency requiring mandatory vaccinations. Nothing in the Act lists criteria that warrant a threat. Also potential penalties aren't specified for those who balk, but very likely they'd include quarantine and possible fines.

The HHS web site also says the Secretary may "issue a declaration....that provides immunity from tort liability (except for willful misconduct) for claims of loss caused, arising out of, relating to, or resulting from administration or use of (vaccine or other pharmaceutical) countermeasures to diseases, threats and conditions determined by the Secretary to constitute a present, or credible risk of a future public health emergency...."

The industry-run US Food and Drug Administration (FDA) notoriously rushes inadequately tested drugs to market, putting their efficacy and safety into question, and turning those who use them into lab rats. It includes everyone if a mass vaccination is ordered on the mere claim of a public emergency - no proof required.

The Pandemic and All-Hazards Preparedness Act (S. 3678) is the other worrisome law, effective December 19, 2006. It amended "the Public Health Service Act with respect to public health security and all-hazards preparedness and response, and for other purposes." Even its supporters worry about issues of privacy, liability, and putting profits over public health. Critics express greater concerns about dangerous remedies for exaggerated or non-existant threats as well as mass hysteria created for political purposes.

At least one other measure is also worrisome - The Model State Emergency Health Powers Act (MSEHPA). So far it's just a proposal by the Center for Law and the Public's Health - "A Collaborative at Johns Hopkins and Georgetown Universities (as) a primary, international, national, state, and local resource on public health law (and) policy for public health practitioners, judges, academics, policymakers, and others."

MSEHPA is now "track(ing) legal responses to the emerging international response to the 2009 H1N1 (swine flu) outbreak, including declarations of public health emergency at the international, national, state, and local levels...." even though forensic evidence can't confirm any H1N1 deaths. No emergency exists anywhere, and reporting one is all hype to sell dangerous drugs to unsuspecting people globally.

On its web site, the ACLU says this about MSEHPA:

It's "written in a way that doesn't adequately protect citizens against the misuse of the tremendous powers that it would grant in an emergency. (It's) replete with civil liberties problems. Its three top flaws are that:

(1) It fails to include basic checks and balances (by) grant(ing) extraordinary emergency powers (that) should never go unchecked. (It) could have serious consequences for individuals' freedom, privacy, and equality."

(2) "It goes well beyond bioterrorism (with) an overbroad definition of 'public health emergency" that may be anything a local or national authority declares for any reason with no conclusive evidence for proof.

(3) "It lacks privacy protections (and) undercut(s) existing protections for sensitive medical information."

MSEHPA worries other organizations besides the ACLU, both conservative and progressive - including the Free Congress Foundation, American Legislative Exchange Council, conservative association of state legislators, Human Rights Campaign, and Health Privacy Project.

The Real Threat of Dangerous, Mandatory Vaccinations

In the wake of the hyped Swine Flu scare, media reports suggest mass vaccinations are coming. The May 6 Kimberly Kindy - Ceci Connolly Washington Post one, for example, headlined "US May Add Shots for Swine Flu to Fall Regimen" without saying they'll be mandatory but reading between the lines suggests the possibility this year or later.

The writers report that "The Obama administration is considering an unprecedented fall vaccination campaign" to include regular and Swine Flu shots, the latter because it's "spreading across the globe."

HHS' Dr. Robin Robinson said "We are moving forward with making a vaccine," and if the government proceeds with a national program, enough supply will be produced to provide two doses for all Americans with spokespersons like National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases, Anthony Fauci, claiming adverse reactions aren't to be expected and adding another shot for Swine Flu "should not present a problem."

The New York Times also hypes the scare with reports of city schools closed after unconfirmed Swine Flu cases, a few adult deaths blamed on H1N1 bringing the claimed total in the city to seven, and the World Health Organization (WHO) saying on June 3 that it's moving closer to declaring a worldwide (Level 6) Swine Flu pandemic - even though none exists.

With all the hype, misinformation, and willful lies WHO's Dr. Keiji Fukuda, in charge of flu, said only 117 deaths globally have been "blamed" on Swine Flu and any warning may include the caveat that the virus isn't very lethal. A more accurate statement would explain that no forensic evidence links any deaths to H1N1, and influenza annually kills about 30,000 people in America alone - something the major media never report or that scattered accounts of any type flu deaths worldwide are no cause for alarm or reason for scary headlines.

It's also unconscionable for the WHO, US and other nations' officials to spread lies, deception, and hysteria so major pharmaceutical companies can foist dangerous vaccines and other drugs on unsuspecting people, harming their health and making them vulnerable to later diseases and possible early deaths.

Massachusetts May Be A Forerunner of What's to Come

On April 28, the Massachusetts Senate unanimously passed a pandemic flu preparation bill that rises to the level of martial law. If approved by the House and signed into law, it will mandate among other measures:

-- "vaccination, treatment, examination, or testing of" all individuals involved in providing health care - as perhaps step one before ordering the same process for all state residents;

-- owners or occupiers of all premises "to permit entry into and investigation of the premises;"

-- closure, evacuation, and decontamination of all suspected facilities; and

-- restricting or prohibiting "assemblages of persons."

Other states may be planning similar measures as precursors to mandatory nationwide vaccinations and overall suspension of civil liberty protections.

Adverse Vaccination Effects on Gulf War Troops

Before deploying to the Persian Gulf in 1990 - 91 (and thereafter to the present), all US troops got a standard series of inoculations against infectious diseases - the same ones given to all US citizens traveling to the region. After arriving, 150,000 also got anthrax vaccinations and 8000 botulinum toxoid ones even though concerns were raised about adverse long-term health consequences.

A National Academy of Sciences' Institute of Medicine (IOM) study was conducted to assess them with results released in September 2000. In December 1997, the Department of Defense (DOD) announced that all US military forces would receive anthrax vaccinations. The Anthrax Vaccine Immunization Program (AVIP) began in March 1998 even though IOM found little published peer-reviewed scientific information on its safety.

In its study, IOM reported evidence of an association between vaccinations studied and transient acute common health effects, including redness, swelling, and fever commonly associated with other vaccinations. However, conclusive proof of long-term problems wasn't determined - likely because study findings were skewed not to find them. More on that below.

IOM also studied botulinum toxoid vaccines and found evidence of an association between the vaccine and transient acute local and systemic effects similar to anthrax vaccinations. Again, conclusive proof of long-term adverse health effects wasn't found - another very dubious conclusion as evidence below explains.

Military personnel usually get multiple vaccinations. IOM studied their effects but didn't prove or disprove any long-term adverse effects. However several independent studies of British Gulf War veterans found some link between multiple vaccinations and later health problems.

Gary Matsumoto is a New York-based award-winning investigative journalist. His 2004 book, "Vaccine A: The Covert Government Experiment That's Killing Our Soldiers and Why GIs are Only the First Victims" took sharp issue with IOM results and the Pentagon's denial of Gulf War syndrome.

Investigating the shadowy vaccination development world, he discovered US military-employed doctors and scientists conducted secret medical experiments on US citizens in violation of the Nuremberg Code and fundamental medical ethics.

For its part, Nuremberg established legal medical experimental standards now incorporated into ethical medical codes, including:

-- requiring voluntary consent of human subjects without coercion, fraud, deceit, and with full disclosure of known risks;

-- experiments should avoid "all unnecessary physical and mental suffering and injury;"

-- experiments should never be conducted if there's "an a priori reason to believe death or disabling injury will occur;"

-- risk "should never exceed that determined by the humanitarian importance of the problem to be solved..;" and

-- experiments should be terminated if there's reason to believe they'll cause "injury, disability, or death to the experimental subject."

According to Matsumoto, the Pentagon violated these and other standards, betrayed the troops, and the fundamental duty of military and civilian leaders to protect them. Since at least 1987, biowarfare development trumped the welfare of tens of thousands of GIs used as human guinea pigs for inoculation with experimental unlicensed anthrax vaccines containing squalene - an oil-based adjuvant (to enhance immunity) known for decades to cause severe autoimmune diseases in lab animals, yet administered involuntarily without disclosure of its harmful effects to human health. Matsumoto wrote:

"The unethical experiments detailed in this book are ongoing, with little prospect of being self-limiting because they have been shielded from scrutiny and public accountability by national security concerns." He suggested the "writing (was) on the wall" of what's to come with prospects now it may be soon.

"When UCLA Medical School's Michael Whitehouse and Frances Beck injected squalene combined with other materials into rats and guinea pigs back in the 1970s, few oils were more effective at causing the animal versions of arthritis and multiple sclerosis." In 1999, immunologist Dr. Johnny Lorentzen at Sweden's Karolinska Institute found that on injection, an "otherwise benign molecule like squalene can stimulate a self-destructive immune response," even though it occurs naturally in the body.

Other research shows that squalene is the experimental anthrax vaccine ingredient that caused devastating autoimmune diseases and deaths for many Gulf War veterans from the US, UK, and Australia, yet it continues in use today and for new vaccines development in labs. There's a "close match between the squalene-induced diseases in animals and those observed in humans injected with this oil: rheumatoid arthritis, multiple sclerosis and systemic lupus erythematosus."

Other autoimmune diseases are also linked to humans injected with squalene. "There are now data in more than two dozen peer-reviewed scientific papers, from ten different laboratories in the US, Europe, Asia and Australia, documenting that squalene-based adjuvants can induce autoimmune diseases in animals...observed in mice, rats, guinea pigs and rabbits. Sweden's Karolinska Institute has demonstrated that squalene alone can induce the animal version of rheumatoid arthritis. The Polish Academy of Sciences has shown that in animals, squalene alone can produce catastrophic injury to the nervous system and the brain. The University of Florida Medical School has shown that in animals, squalene alone can induce production of antibodies specifically associated with systemic lupus erythematosus."

Micropaleontologist Dr. Viera Scheibner conducted research into the adverse effects of adjuvants in vaccines and wrote:

Squalene "contributed to the cascade of reactions called "Gulf War syndrome. (GIs developed) arthritis, fibromyalgia, lymphadenopathy, rashes, photosensitive rashes, malar rashes, chronic fatigue, chronic headaches, abnormal body hair loss, non-healing skin lesions, aphthous ulcers, dizziness, weakness, memory loss, seizures, mood changes, neuropsychiatric problems, anti-thyroid effects, anaemia, elevated ESR (erythrocyte sedimentation rate), systemic lupus erythematosus, multiple sclerosis, ALS, Raynaud's phenomenon, Sjorgren's syndrome, chronic diarrhea, night sweats and low-grade fever."

Matsumoto's book includes numerous case studies of GIs afflicted with one or more of the above syndromes, their devastating effects, and the outlandish US government reaction - failing to acknowledge their existence or a connection between them and administered vaccines. Also denying the effects of other toxic Gulf theater exposures (like depleted uranium) as well as withholding meaningful treatments or protocols.

US Army Captain George L. Skypeck spoke eloquently for many when he said:

"Was the character of my valor less intense than those at Lexington? Was the pain of my wounds any less severe than those at Normandy? And was my loneliness any less sorrowful than those at Inchon? Then why am I forgotten amonst those remembered as 'heros?' "

If mass vaccinations are ordered, millions of Americans may ask: Why do you keep using unsafe vaccines and other drugs when clear evidence shows their dangers? Why do you jeopardize all Americans by unleashing a future plague of serious illnesses, diseases, and disabilities? Why have you willfully and maliciously ruined my health?

Immunologist Dr. Pamela Asa first recognized autoimmune diseases showing up in GIs that mirrored those in lab animals injected with oil formulated squalene adjuvants. By 1997, hundreds of millions of dollars had been spent testing vaccines containing them, in animal studies since 1988 and human clinical trials since 1991 - by leading research institutes like NIH, the National Cancer Institute, and the National Institutes of Allergy and Infectious Diseases (NIAID).

According to Matsumoto, today, "Squalene adjuvants are a key ingredient in a whole new generation of vaccines intended for mass immunization around the globe" even though researchers at Tulane Medical School and the Walter Reed Army Institute of Research proved "that the immune system responds specifically to the squalene molecule."

The immune system "see(s) and recognizes it as an oil molecule native to the body. Squalene is not just a molecule found in a knee or elbow - it is found throughout the nervous system and the brain." When injected in the body, the immune system attacks it as an enemy to be eliminated. Eating and digesting squalene isn't a problem. But injecting it "galvanize(s) the immune system into attacking it, which can produce self-destructive cross reactions against the same molecule in the places where it occurs naturally in the body - and where it is critical to the health of the nervous system."

Once self-destruction begins, it doesn't stop as the body keeps making the molecule that the immune system is trained to attack and destroy.

Immunologist Dr. Bonnie Dunbar also did extensive research on hepatitis B-inflicted illnesses and found similar autoimmune processes involved in molecular mimicry in people with devastating neuroimmune syndromes after getting vaccine injections.

Matsumoto says "Squalene is a kind of trigger for (a) real biological weapon," what Soviet researchers called "a biological time bomb!!" and Matsumoto says is "the immune system." When its "full repertoire of cells and antibodies (attack) tissues they are supposed to protect, the results can be catastrophic." He and Dr. Pam Asa conclude that "Oil adjuvants are the most insidious chemical weapon ever devised," including ones with squalene - something the Soviets knew could be used as a weapon in the 1980s.

Matsumoto says that "the real problem with using squalene (isn't) that it mimics a molecule found in the body; it is the same molecule. So what American scientists conceived as a vaccine booster (or what's now being developed in labs) was another 'nano-bomb,' instigating chronic, unpredictable and debilitating disease. When the NIH....argued that squalene would be safe because it is native to the body, just the opposite was true," and, of course, still is. "Squalene's natural presence in the body made it one of the most dangerous molecules ever injected into man" and using it in vaccines is outlandish and criminal.

So why does Washington sanction its use? According to Matsumoto: "scientists in the United States are now literally invested in squalene. Army scientists who developed the second generation anthrax vaccine have reputations to protect and licensing fees to reap (as well as) worldwide rights to develop and commercialize the new recombinant vaccine for anthrax" and ones for other health threats.

Disturbingly, "Many of the cutting-edge vaccines currently in development by the NIH and its corporate partners contain squalene in one formulation or another. There is squalene in the prototype recombinant vaccines for HIV, malaria, herpes, influenza (including the swine strain), cytomegalovirus and human papillomavirus." Some of these "are intended for mass immunization(s) around the globe" and that possibility should terrify everyone enough to refuse any mandate or doctor's prescription to take them.

Another problem is that "Autoimmunity (takes) years to diagnose" because early symptoms (headaches, joint pain, etc.) are so vague they can easily be from other causes.

From inception, vaccines have always been dangerous enough for some experts to call them biological weapons undermining health, manipulating and crippling the immune system, and creating the possibility of future debilitating diseases. So Big Pharma's solution is new, more potent genetically engineered vaccines and drugs that may end up harming or killing many who take them, especially people with weakened immune systems.

Matsumoto and others sounded the alarm to alert everyone to avoid these poisons masquerading as protective drugs. In fact, they benefit only the bottom lines of companies that manufacture them and scientists reaping generous royalties.

Stephen Lendman is a Research Associate of the Centre for Research on Globalization. He lives in Chicago and can be reached at

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Literally Literal

I recently took my kids over to a play group, well -- to play. They had fun. Nicolas was the oldest and that seems to work out well for him. He is thoughtful of the younger kids and as with most kids, he gets the chance to show off his leadership abilities - which in turn gives him a bit of confidence

The woman who organizes the playgroup does childcare, and has worked with children all her life. I watch her, while she watches Nicolas. It's amusing, in a good way. She's not used to a child who is so literal and Nick questioned her several times, for clarification -- which is great! Slang can really mess with him and I felt proud of him for questioning her. She knows of his "condition" and gives me a smile every once in a while, when our eyes meet. I am thankful that she is understanding and I can see why kids and parents love her. She's calm, cool and collected: everything that you would want in a daycare provider. Those kids (and their parents) are so lucky/blessed to have her!
This summer, I will need to take Nicolas around older children too. I will intentionally place him in situations for him to grow and learn from. Honestly, I dread it. Don't get me wrong! We've come a long, long way since last summer. But - we are far from where I hope we get, in our healing.

Q: What's a mom to do?
A: Pray.

And I do pray. I pray that God will provide Nicolas with understanding friends. Maybe some artsy kids, like himself. And I pray that those kids will have parents that are understanding too.

Monday, June 8, 2009

I Wonder What Oprah Thinks

How Allopathic Medicine is Shooting Itself in the Foot by Attacking Oprah is worth reading on Adventure's in Autism


Age of Autism's Newsweek’s Newspeak: Pharma’s Weapon Against Oprah

Of course I wonder what Oprah thinks. I wonder a lot of things... Does someone as well-known and already in the spotlight, need or want more attention? Hmmm... I am thankful, extremely thankful for Jenny McCarthy. I've said it before and I meant it.

The more I learn about recovering children, especially my own child, the more tired I become. I am just tired right now. For those of us who are working so hard, we need to stay focused. I have no time for criticism anymore. Life is precious and short, and I don't need the distraction or diversion. I am learning too.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Good-bye Aluminum Cookware

Interesting article about aluminum toxicity. We avoid metals as much as possible, including using aluminum-free baking soda. I just realized that I have 2 roasting pans that I bake meats in, that are aluminum. My grandmother always used them and they cook and bake wonderfully. But, so does glass. Good old glass to the rescue again!

The following is pretty interesting, if I don't say so myself!

"Aluminum can also accumulate in the brain causing seizures and reduced mental alertness. The brain is normally protected by a blood-brain barrier, which filters the blood before it reaches it. Elemental aluminum does not pass easily through this barrier, but certain compounds contained within aluminum, such as aluminum fluoride do. Interestingly, many municipal water supplies are treated with both aluminum sulfate and aluminum fluoride. These two chemicals can also combine easily in the blood. Aluminum fluoride is also poorly excreted in the urine.

When there is a high level of absorption of aluminum and silicon, the combination can result in an accumulation of certain compounds in the cerebral cortex and can prevent nerve impulses being carried to and from the brain properly. Long term calcium deficiency can further aggravate the condition. Workers in aluminum smelting plants on a long term basis, have been know to experience dizziness, poor coordination, balance problems and tiredness. It has been claimed that the accumulation of aluminum in the brain could be a possible cause for these issues.

It is estimated that the normal person takes in between 3 and 10 milligrams of aluminum per day. Aluminum is the most abundant metallic element produced by the earth. It can be absorbed into the body through the digestive tract, the lungs and the skin, and is also absorbed by and accumulates in the bodies tissues. Aluminum is found naturally in our air, water and soil. It is also used in the process of making cooking pots and pans, utensils and foil. Other items such as over the counter pain killers, anti-inflammatory products, and douche preparations can also contain aluminum. Aluminum is also an additive in most baking powders, is used in food processing, and is present in antiperspirants, toothpaste, dental amalgams, bleached flour, grated cheese, table salt, and beer, (especially when the beer is in aluminum cans). The biggest source of aluminum, however, comes from our municipal water supplies."
How is it that neither my college-aged son nor his girlfriend have heard of aluminum toxicity? My mother has never heard of it either. What about the American public?

I only knew that aluminum was in deodorants, because I once worked in a salon that sold "rocks" as an alternative to traditional roll-ons, solids or spray deodorants. I didn't question things back then (obviously) like I do now.

"Autopsies on a large amount of people who have died of Alzheimer’s disease showed accumulations of up to four times the normal amount of aluminum in the nerve cells in the brain, especially in the hippocampus which plays a central role in memory.

So what products should we be avoiding?

Aluminum Cookware - A study done by the University of Cincinnati Medical Center showed that using aluminum pots and pans to cook tomatoes doubled the aluminum content of the tomatoes, from 2 to 4 milligrams per serving.

Antacids - Many name brand antacids contain aluminum hydroxide. Aluminum free antacids are also available such as Alka-Seltzer, Alka Mints, Di-Gel tablets, Maalox caplets, Mylanta gel caps, Rolaids tablets, Titralac, and Tums E-X.

Antidiarrheal Products - Watch labels carefully for any mention of aluminum salts. Products containing loperamide such as Imodium AD usually do not contain aluminum salts.

Containers - Aluminum coated waxed containers, used especially for orange and pineapple juices, cause juices inside to absorb aluminum. Beer and soft drinks that are stored in aluminum cans also absorb small quantities of aluminum. Bottled beverages are better.

Deodorants - Many deodorants and antiperspirants and even some skin powders contain aluminum chlorhydrate. Aluminum in this form is more readily absorbed into the brain via the nasal passages.

Food Additives - Cake mixes, frozen doughs, self-rising flour, and sliced process cheese food all contain from 5 to 50 milligrams of sodium aluminum phosphate per average serving. Baking powder has 5 to 70 milligrams of sodium aluminum sulfate per teaspoon. Starch modifiers and anti caking agents also contain varying levels of aluminum compounds. The processed cheeses used on cheese burgers at fast food restaurants also contain aluminum, which is added to make the cheese melt better.

Shampoos - A number of anti-dandruff preparations contain magnesium aluminum silicate. Watch labels carefully for aluminum lauryl sulfate, which is a common ingredient in many popular shampoo products."
I have been using amino acids to combat metals that may have accumulated in our bodies. I am also using some Young Living oils. I'll take all the help that I can get. Acids, oils... sounds funky! Just kidding... I kid, I kid - to survive chaos, I kid...

Lastly, this article about aluminum poisoning is so informative and a bit disturbing (especially the detoxification symptoms!) , that I have to share it. Have to.